Smoking

When the heck does it get easier?

rmiles7721March 31, 20081Site News

Getting ready to hit the sack but I wanted to make sure and post before I go to bed. Nothing particularly exciting happened today and I am in a foul mood which is one of the reasons I haven’t posted since this morning.

Fortunately the audits came out OK at the one store I mentioned might have some issues today. That’s a freaking miracle considering that the waitresses ran the store for 24 hours. Not that I think they are dishonest but too many hands in the pie tend to skew things.

I still haven’t smoked and I want one more today than I have all week. I’m just ready to beat someone’s ass. I didn’t stop and buy a pack although I damn sure wanted to today. When the heck does it start getting easier. 100 hours now. Just over four days since my last cigarette. It’s probably a good thing the girls are in another state right now. That worked out pretty well (for them anyway) since I don’t have anyone here to pick a fight with.

I’ll tell you one thing though, quitting smoking gives you some serious gas. Of course since I severely curtailed the smoking starting about eight weeks ago I have noticed it before but since Friday it’s been getting worse. It’s fucking rancid too. Smells like something crawled up my ass and died there. Even the dog is staying away from me. I have to keep moving at work so as to not be noticed. That’s fine as long as it’s silent but once you start getting those noisy walking farts there’s just no hiding.

I skipped the gym yesterday so made sure that I went back today. I tried to take it a bit easy on myself today and worked out for a little over half an hour. I am increasing the weights I am lifting with my legs and thighs but haven’t been able to do a lot with my upper body yet. It pisses me off because I used to have a lot of upper body strength. Guess that’s what I get for 41 sedentary years. I may start doing pushups in the morning as well to help get a bit of strength back in my shoulders and arms.

Did the tanning bed thing again today too. I’ve only noticed a tiny difference thus far, maybe I need to get them to keep it on longer.

There are some nice benefits to going to the gym. There are quite a few hotties that go as well. Something to look at while I exercise. Just have to make sure to wear the pants with the tent attachment I guess 🙂 Most of them are too damn young but they are nice to look at.

I don’t have anything more to bitch about tonight. Now that I napped for two hours this afternoon I’m going to try and get a bit of shut-eye if I can.

48 Hours

rmiles7721March 29, 20082Site News

So the girls are leaving in the morning for Hilton Head. Kind of sucks that I won’t get to go because it means that I will never get to see our friends again as they are moving overseas. Some days my job sucks.

I’ve been pretty busy this weekend as my store in Temple has been hosting the local police department. They are raising money for Special Olympics (in case some of my employees need a second career as a retard) and they sit on the roof until tomorrow night or until they raise $5,000. It’s a pretty cool thing to do and they all seem to be having a good time, at least when it’s not raining.

I don’t know how much fun I am having though. Two of my three stores have gotten a bit out of hand with some of their costs and employees just flat out stealing and in the case of the one in Bremen, the manager just doesn’t seem to care less, at least not enough to change anything and fix the problem so I, along with one of the other district managers, have to go in for every single shift change now. That means being out of the house until 10pm every night but still getting back up by 5am, AND I have to work three doubles over the next seven days. I am not all that excited about it, as a matter of fact, combined with the fact that I’m not smoking I have pretty much been a bastard to several people that work for me and unless they fix the shit I don’t plan on changing that anytime soon.

Speaking of the smoking it’s been 48 hours since my last one. Actually it’s more like 53 now. 3,180 minutes. 190,800 seconds. I started writing this post prior to going in for drawer change earlier this evening but I didn’t get it finished in time. Even if I had, we had no Internet until a short while ago. Anytime it thunders within 150 miles Charter High Speed goes down and tonight was no exception.

I haven’t slept since Wednesday night, even tried to nap today and was unsuccessful until about 15 minutes before the wife came in to wake me up. I guess it’s because of the lack of nicotine. This sucks and I really want a smoke, even with the Chantix. It would be much worse without it though. The next few days are going to be the toughest though. With the wife and kids not being at home I won’t have any reason to feel guilty if I smoke. Now that I’ve managed to go two days though I really don’t want to screw that up.

I’ve been trying to keep busy so that I don’t think about it but that only works for so long. The working out is part of that. I did make myself go to the gym this afternoon after I went ans spent a hundred bucks on a freaking new tire. I had apparently gotten a nail in it but it was so close to the inside edge that they wouldn’t plug it. I made sure that they showed it to me first. The Wal-Mart folks are usually pretty cool about it anyway. They are more than happy to patch or plug a tire if that’s all it needs.

I suppose that’s about it for today. I am rambling, even more than normal and I thing maybe a hit of nyquil might just do the trick and let me sleep for a while. I have even been dreaming about smoking when I do manage to catch some sleep and I would like to avoid those if at all possible. Anyone have a couple of ludes available? That might just do the trick 🙂 Maybe I just need a new hobby to take my mind off of it. Working out at the gym is only good for an hour a day or so. Perhaps I can take a couple of hours and go down to Fulton Industrial and sodomize winos or something. Any takers?

Busy Day

rmiles7721February 4, 2008Parenting/Family

Wouldn’t you know it? One day off and all kinds of stuff to do when all I really want to do is lie around on the couch eating bon bons. Fucking real life.

I have to drive to Carrollton today and pick up tags for the new cars. I’ll just transfer the old tag from the Oldsmobile. The guy I am selling it too has paid most of it off so I went ahead and dropped it at his house yesterday along with the keys and title. No big deal. He needs to get brakes and then can finish paying me. Since I get his paycheck first I’m not particularly worried about not getting paid. We are keeping the other one. Although the Plymouth has 200k+ miles on it it is still in great shape so we will garage it and keep it here so that the Marine has something to drive when he’s at home. Besides, it’s a good idea to keep an extra just in case.

RePete has finally returned to school today but Pete has a dentist’s appointment at 11 a.m. and I have a doctor’s appointment at 2:30. It’s pretty much pointless to take her to school today since she has a mid-day visit with the doctor. She’s still got a lot of that crap from the Pneumonia in her lungs anyway. One more day won’t kill her although I’m sure the school will think so. What the fuck do they know anyway? Not a damned thing about proper parenting, that’s for sure.

I haven’t been doing as well with the non-smoking the last couple of days, although I am still smoking way less than I was. I am working on that today. Even with the Chantix this has been pretty darned hard. One day I want to quit and the next I don’t.

Once I get home this afternoon and get some bills taken care of there is quite a bit of writing I intend to do. We’ll see if I get it accomplished or not…